Saturday, March 28, 2009

what should i do ??


from the postes that i shared with all of you , evryone knew that i'm always lonely and leaved by my friends .... and this time , i get a serios problem .. between me and best friends ....

a few days ago , the guy which sat beside me told me that he decided to broken up with my two best friends ... its a serious problem between three of them and not including me .. i'm still his best friend .... he wanna to break up because my best friends always treat him like a servent and doggy , he felt that they did not treat him as thier best friend ,and also my best friend always called him as "pondan" infront of everyone ... he can't hold this anymore ... so he decided to broken up with them ....

firstly they though this was only a joke ... they fight before that ...so ... my two best friends though that he's just angry at them and he'll be fine after few days .... after they knew that he's serious .... they wrote a letter to him as a reply .... the letter also involve me but they don't wanna me to read it .. do you know why ?? after you read the letter below ... you'll understnd automatictly ....


" some fight always happended between us incluing elaine .... when we fight .... you are always helping and give agrrement to her but not me .. i don't understand why and i felt beh song liao ... i treat you better more than elaine ... i treat you as my best friend too .... and i never treat you as my servent .... you all always said that i never think bout your feelings , how bout me ?? do you all think bout my feellings ?? you all always cheat me and tan .. i'm very beh song liao ler...(this is written by my first best friend )

i'm always calling you "pondan " is because of i have to stay away from those nonsence between us .... and you laways told elaine bout my secrets .... i treat you as my friend so i told you that ... but why are you telling elaine ?? "


they usually don't let me read but i read it during they went to toilet ... i'm so heart after reading this ... i think ... am i always choosed the wrong person as my best friends ?? why no one of my best friends is really treat my as thier best friend ?? is that my problem or thier problem ?? what have i done wrong ?? why did the god don't let me really have a best friend (girl )?? am i really alone in the world ?? so many question had appeared in my mine ... i've no mood to recess and also no mood to study ... luckly i have training in the afternoon and i can make my self busy and i won't think bout it ...

it's just temporarily ... i'm still think bout it this morning when i was awake ... why should i do ?? stay like nothing happended or broken up with them ?? my readers... leave comment after reading this and try to help me .. thanks to all of you ...

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Haiz ~~ Angry !!

yesterday i went to sunway pyramid with my friends ... usually we should be happy .. but somthing cause me and oi kha angry and have to buy tickets twice for ice skating ... why ... i would tell u now ....
me and oi kha reached at sunway ice rink at ten o'clock in the morning ... as the plaining ... we have to buy ticket and go in to the ice rink and wait for the others to reach and buy breakfast for us .. my other 4 friends they change plaining and have thier shopping first but they did not told us and we did not know they had arrived ... me and oi kah skate and wait for them around 2 hours ... i called them but no one answer .... they sms to me but they did not answer my call .... i ask them "where are u all ?" they never reply ... know how to contect me but didn't answer my phone ... we felt angry and hungry but the shop in the ice rink haven started buisnesing .. so we only have a choice -- get out from the ice rink and have breakfast outside ...
when we are having breakfast at Mc donald , my friend (not the one who change plain) called , he told us that my others 4 friend had arrived a few hours ago and they will find us at the ice rink now ... we getting more angry , we just get out from the ice rink and we have to went in there again .... the tickets cost RM21 per person , and we have to pay twice ... how angry am i ....
but we have no choice .. the reason they give me for not answer and reply my sms is " you got call me mer ? you where got sms me ?? makan tahit lar you !! " i waste RM10 on my phone to contact them for 2 HOURS , they told me that they did not know i called them ... what they use thier phone for ??!! At the end , my friends belanja me drinks ... and i forgive them because atlist they arrived the ice rink and skate with us ...

my best Rebecca scared to skate because she falled down very heartly two Years ago , we advised her to skate , firstly she reject but at the end she pay RM21 and skates with us .. she hold my hand tightly and i teach and bring her skate around the ice rink .... although she let me felt heavy and cause me can't skate better but i knew that this is what i suppost to do ...take good care of her .... while we are skating around , we saw a guy which very handsome doing shuffle on the ICe ... wow ... how cool is that .... i ask rebecca that how it is if her wooer know how to shuffle and also came and skate with us ... she answer :" i dun think so he know how to do shuffle, even he know shuffle also not as well as XXX ; but i knew that his badminton sure better then XXX..." i told this to her wooer after i went back home ... and he says : " speakless " .... swt ....

and today ,... also somthing cause me angry and try to kill my self ( but i didn' do that), .... after i having my breakfast , my mom ordered us to wash our school shoes ... while i'm waiting for my brother to finish washing his shoes ,i watch a movie on my leptop which i already downloaded from the internet a few days ago ... and suddently my mom came and scold :" why are u watching movie on the leptop every time ??!! quekly clean your school shoes or i'll cane you !!" what i done wrong ?? everytime ?? i dun think so ... i only watch these movie during holidays .... what de hell .... i felt very angry and i try to bang my head on the wall .... although it fell pain but usually let me felt better .... ( dun try to learn this from me , dangerous action ) .... haiz .... no freedom , watch movie only mar.. also need to scold me like a doggy .... ANGRY!!!!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

hurey!!

hurrey !! i'm free for once .... nex week was a shool holidays .... me and my best friends decided to have shopping together at sunway pyramid on the coming saturday .... i actually guess that i can't go with them ... but this time ... dunno why ... my dad let me follow .... i'm free !! for once!!! it's sucha good news for me ... but anyway ... i have to thanks to my dad because of let me go out with friends .... and todaywas my aunty's (mother side ) birthday .... we have our dinner at starhill hotel (sushi buffer JOGOYA) wau ..... so nice.... there're so many seafood that i like to eat ... ice cream .... prawns ... crab .... fish ... many many more ... today was a happy day ..... i 'll remember this day for atlist two months .... (not forever ) hahah ... okok .. see u at next post ...

Friday, March 6, 2009

i'm borned in a freeless family....

exam had fnish .... i had been having rivision from morning till night ..... now only worried bout the result only ... since after exam , i already get 1 A and 2 Bs .. haha .... already increase damn many mark ...

these days , suddently thinking about the percentage that i go out with my friends ... since i had know some friends and decided to go somwhere together ... my friends 's parents always let them go out with friends but my parents always say "no" to this ... why ?? they say : " later u cought by the bad guys how ?? huh?? later missing how ?? " what kind of reason is this ?? Now already a modern time .... i don't think that the bad guys will catch me lor .. and we go out by a group not alone .... my friends will protect me de mar ....

at this modern time , maybe i can accept this reason because have alot of kes bout girls have been cought by bad guys .. but they're too over already .. evn go the nearest place act field near by my house , also cannot ... even come back from school cannot turn back to school again ... swt right ?? ok , nevermine .. maybe they just scared to lost thir only daughther ,....now even worse, i only decided to buy a story book that costs RM 18 oso need to as for their permission ... damn !! actually me and my friends decided to having ice skate and shoppng at Sunway pyramid on next saturday ... my mom straight away say "NO!!" infrontmy freinds .... how shame am i .... without any reason , they don't give me any free time between me and friends .... also because of this ... me and my cousin become unfalimier .... some of my friends alos think that i'm so lame because i only can stay at home atlise my mom bring me out ....

Sometimes , i have to lie to them because i need som free time ..... but no use .... they won't to what i told them ... so if my school have any trip ... i'm 100% sure that i can't go .... i'm wasing my saliva if i ask fro it ... they always taking this as thier reasons :" ai yoh , this places we'll bring you all there to travel next time one lar ... later you all go ... we have to worried bout you all , later fall sick how??" ..... that's just axcuses ....

today i went shopping with my mom at the nearest nearest shopping mall from our house ... i found that ... most the shoppiers are students ... primary and secondary ... they're having fun times with their own friends .. how bout me ?? shoppign with my mom and younger brother only .. walking here and there .. so the shame ... and also i saw my classmate ... they can WALK to shopping mall together by group and shopping together ... me ?? i know my parents will not let we do this till ifinish my SPM .... three years more .... such a long time for me .... i'll get crazy .....

why am i so freelesss ?? my life will be meaning less if i don't have those happy times with my friends and also best friends .... How can i be so UNLUCKY ?? borned in a freeless family ?? why ?? my god .. i needthe answer....