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hi .. my dearly readers .. long time no see... i've never post any post after i wrote a post 3 weeks ago ..  i'm having marching training for my sport house(rumah sukan) to have competition for the during sports day (over already lu~) ...our house lose in the competition and red house won it (damn it .. they stole our idea last year .. and thier formasi was so bad ..) ... i hope that we can win next year ... in these 3 weeks ... many mant thing had happended .. included : to solve the disiplin problem in our class ... my form teacher changed my best friend rebecca's place to behind of my secret teller ( Freak) .... the starting few days ,they seens very awkward ... but , during these 2 weeks .. they relation (friends) become better and better .. example : they can talk and fight(mouth to mouth ) during the tuition ... hahaha ... hope he enjoy ... hhehe .... and also ... last 2 week ... i called my best friend Rebecca and try to solve the problem between us (to know more bout this .. read the post "what should i do" ) ... i explain about what they missunderstand and told her bout my feellings and she already knew that what i think... we talked on the phone for 2 hours .. wao !! we've never talk on the phone so long before ..  its desrve me  to use aroung 10 ringgit for the phone ... and a good news !! my best friends and the guy sat beside me are on good terms again .. hahaha....this is the second time they break off and also the second time they on good terms again ... so sweat ... 

   these days ... the relation between me and christebell become better and better .. i think better then my two friend guar ... heheh .. although my two best friend are still leave me alone ... but she (christebell) was always with me .. thank god ... ooh yeah .. i forgot ... this is a bad and scary news for me acually ... my two best friend , rebecca and hazel ... turn bad .. this is because by a stupid , san pan and ugly girl (i hate her since i know her) ... why i say like this ?? because she teached my friends bout bad words ( my best friend never say bad words before) , bring them along when she ponteng (thy have never ponteng before also) , and she take them away from me ( for my best friends , she's more inportant than me now) !!! i hate her ... all my friends including jian were so scared that they will beome the famouse "lala mui' in our school or form ... but luckily , one of them stil can control herself ... thank god ...  and one more thing .. i kept a cute guy which is my classmate as my " young brother" .. haha .. i keep him as my brother is because of his hair was so fun to play and he's cute although he is a bit lazy ... a happy news .. heheh ... 

 today morning , i woke up at around twelve o'clock ... damn late right ?? my parents have went to church near by and they let us to sleep until how late we want (first time ler) ... after that.. we went toputeri mart to have our breakfast+lunch (already around 1pm lor) ... we went home aftre eating and i continue designing my KHB project while my elder brother was watching movie on the tv .... suddently .. my mom called me to clean my table .. but my table was clean and had tidied ... and she scolded me that " why don't u buy those paper that ur teacher ask u to buy when u was at puteri mart this morning??!! i orderedu to clean yur table do you clean it ??!! i'm always asking you to do your homwork down here and not upstairs !! what are u doing pstairs ??!! why is the tv turning on ??!! are you doing your homework or watching movies??!!" i'm explain all this and they did not belived me ... they scolded me .. my mom alway scolded me when she was in a bad mood and not because of me ... i'm always scolded y my mom because of my brothers ... i was so sad and i cried for 2 hours .... just now ... i'm just finished having dinner with my family and my aunt's family ... i'm watching news on the tv with my father and i went in to the kitchen to have a look see what an i help ... my aunt and mom was busying washing plates , my aunt ask me :" wow , why are you jot helping your mom one ?? her hand was heard ler..." i actually wanna answer :" because u helping her mar.." but i have to respect her so i never answere her ... and my mom said :" haiz .. now i'm so regret that i borned them (means me and my younger brother) ... born them are just to le me be more angry only ..." i was so hurt when i heard this and i think: why don't you sell me to others?? i was so hurt and my heart broke ... 

now i knew even how i work hard ... its inpossible to be a good girl in my parents heart .... i can't do it ... and i can't hold it ... i just wanna to leave this house ....